(ANON QUESTION RECEIVED ON GodfirstGodalways)
This sounds bad but my life was easier and I was happier before I really strengthened my faith, when I was more of a “casual Christian”. Now that I’m taking my relationship with God much more seriously, I’ve had the hardest year of my life and have cried nearly everyday due to my hardships. I just want to get out of this wilderness and feel joy again.
That’s interesting because I have made the same reflection in the past. I get you. But I’m so glad you’ve chosen to live life for the LORD.Trust me, you are maturing. You will come to a point later on and make another reflection based on the fact that you know God is still guiding you. There’s no going back and even if you really did, all the seriousness you’ve put into this relationship with God will only help you to decide based on faith/discernment, and sooner or later you will be humbled again to seek God. If you are a true child of the King, you will return to Him again and again. He never fails to call you back into the heart of worship because He created you for Him. He works things for your own good, to better you. If you really missed your old life, you would walk away from Him in a heartbeat. But I do believe you know He follows you wherever you go, because that which was once a mustard seed of faith, sorry to tell you, is growing into something beautiful, but it’s just hard for you to see it now. That is a blessing.
There’s a reason why you are still walking with Him and continue to seek Him despite your hardships. I believe it’s because underneath your desire for an easy life, you know without a doubt you would not be where you are today. You’re a more resilient and strong person, and you know it would be so much more difficult handling situations if you didn’t seek God. Make sure to encounter gladness in your heart when you surrender your pain and suffering to the LORD. That gladness will only become peace and joy whenever you’re surrendering them in complete humility. Humility will not breed in your heart if pride and bitterness is still there. So do what you have to do (forgive yourself/others/the situation and confess any burdens you’ve got) and surrender by doing it gladly. If you do this each time you are faced with another hardship, you will be grow more confident to shift your thinking from negative to positive. Happiness is based on good feelings. Joy is found in peace whether under pressure or not. I hope this helped. I will be praying for you. <3
1 Peter 5:10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.
James 1:12 Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
Romans 5:3-6 Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.
Romans 8:18 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.
Nehemiah 8:10 Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.
By His Grace, Sheela (Via godfirstgodalways.tumblr.com)