ANON QUESTION RECEIVED ON GodfirstGodalways)
I’m 26 and I honestly don’t know if I belong in Gods path I go to church from time to time do really good for about 3 weeks I pray and I read the word . But then when certain things in my life don’t work out I go back to drinking and having sex . As well as other sins I feel bad because I don’t ever wanna take God as a joke . I wanna be a loyal child of God but why I’m I struggling? I even feel bad reading the word or even praying. Should I keep going to church I feel like I’ll never change
You are changing and you will keep changing, so keep praying and going to church. There isn’t a single Christian who doesn’t struggle with at least one thing. It may seem as if some have overcome all their battles but it’s impossible that they will go on with life not ever being negatively affected again somehow, because my optimism opts to think they are there to make us desire God more and truly become desperate for Him. He uses those hard times to get our attention on Him again. Why? Because it pleases Him when we call on Him for guidance. To Him, it’s a reminder that we still worship Him. So remind yourself that.
If you’re doubting that God is for you, I’d like to remind you that He is for you. You are for Him because He created you in His image (Gen. 1:27) so that you will worship Him (Isa. 43:21). How do I know we were meant to worship Him? We feel empty and worthless when we are not pouring our lives into something greater than ourselves. We feel bad because we don’t want to take God as a joke and we want to be loyal children of His. We were made into His image. Spiritually we were made to worship, biologically we were made to procreate and work. Put those two together and we get striving for value and greatness. And that’s why our souls and bodies are never content if we’re not living our best. But it’s your attention and focus on who your living your best for that matters.
Joshua Eze is a pastor I follow on YouTube and he says about sinning that you should love the One your sinning against more than your sin. I know you hate your sin especially because of the mental repercussions of it, but you must hate it with all your guts and hate it with a strategy before it affects you. I believe struggles are struggles because they are the same battles we deal with again and again. Hardship and trouble are different in a way that they are generally problems we come across with because life is unpredictable. But struggles on the other hand are more like battles we have chosen for ourselves.
So long as you’re not reminding yourself who you’re living for and choosing to struggle instead because you haven’t made surrendering a daily and hourly habit, you will be put in the same situations more often than not. Since you are a child of God because you fear Him, then tell yourself that each time you struggle is because the LORD is disciplining you, not because He is punishing you. Those who accept the LORD’s discipline, are those who accept His Son, Jesus. Those who do not accept His Son and His discipline are wicked and will suffer punishment. Have you ultimately chosen which of these you are?
I believe you are a child of God and you often need to remind yourself that truth. All Christians need to remind themselves that. He molds us to get better and better at overcoming our struggles, that’s why He continually presents us tests/trials. Choose to see your struggles as tests and trials and sooner or later they will not be struggles to you. Be present and aware that they are blessings in disguise. Thank Him for them, but get in the habit of surrendering and confessing your sins as soon as you realize how awful you feel, and don’t stay in that negativity because it’s your responsibility as His child to believe and accept His unconditional love. This is the important part where you accept Jesus Christ into your heart again. By Grace, through faith, you have been saved (Eph. 2:8-9). YOU WILL ONLY STOP GIVING INTO STRUGGLE IF YOU REMEMBER TO SURRENDER RIGHT THEN AND THERE. Jesus saves anyone from trouble even if you caused that trouble upon yourself. I am praying for the LORD to strengthen those convictions you have as I believe you are a child of His. Please watch this episode of the Confidence Series about overcoming self-doubt. It’s a Bible study where I talk about temptations. God bless you! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EMiXuwXomZQ
Psalm 37:23-24 The LORD makes firm the steps of the one who delights in him; though he may stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with his hand.
James 4:17 If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn’t do it, it is sin for them.
1 John 3:9-10 Those who are God’s children do not continue sinning, because the new life from God remains in them. They are not able to go on sinning, because they have become children of God. So we can see who God’s children are and who the devil’s children are: Those who do not do what is right are not God’s children, and those who do not love their brothers and sisters are not God’s children.
Romans 12; 1-2 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Proverbs 3:11-12 My son, do not despise the Lord’s discipline or be weary of his reproof, for the Lord reproves him whom he loves, as a father the son in whom he delights.
Proverbs 11:21 Assuredly, the evil man will not go unpunished, But the descendants of the righteous will be delivered.
By His Grace, Sheela (Via godfirstgodalways)