(ANON QUESTION RECEIVED FROM GodfirstGodalways)
(1)Hello beautiful! I am someone who placed very high expectations on herself and although, I know I’m not perfect, I’ve been shown that I’m constantly striving to be. I think this need for perfectionism really puts a strain on how I view God. It’s like I KNOW He loves me. I know He wants to what’s best for me and loves me unconditionally, yet the minute I feel like I’ve let him down, I get really down on myself about it. And more specifically, I have this idea in my head that if I don’t understand
(2)Or discern his voice each and EVERY single time, He thinks I’m being disobedient and I know how much He hates disobedience. So then my anxiety and disappointment within myself begins to takeover. I guess my question to you is, I know God gates disobedience but if I’m trying my best to seek him and listen to him the best way I possibly can, is he upset? Do I ruin his plan? Do I prevent my own blessings? Sometimes it’s hard for me to discern his voice so if I FEEL like I am not doing exactly what
:)) Hiii! I can relate so much because I’m a perfectionist like you. I have a question, is your knowledge of His unconditional love for you something you arrive at/something you rediscover many times a day, or is it a knowledge you have “in the back of your head”? If you want to stop this attitude of perfectionism, you have to accept that your obedience also means eradicating this understanding you’ve come up with and deliberately give into and completely trust God’s absolute (whole and perfect) view of you. Let Him renew and transform your mind…again. Your understanding no matter how you feel does not and will never change the fact that your imperfection (your carnality, your sins, your natural tendencies…) were already paid for on the Cross. You take away the value of God’s Grace to yourself whenever you feel that you are not enough. When you overdo it with trying your best to please God by striving to be perfect, you’re going to lose sight of why He sent His Son to die for you. Each time you mess up, just own up to it, repent, confess, and accept His Grace (Jesus) all over again, but don’t promise God that you’ll never mess up again.
Humble yourself and pray in Jesus’ name to change you. The purpose of humbling yourself on the realization of your sin is so you may be reminded of His perfect Grace, so you can move on without fear. If you know God loves you, you must also know that He will not let you remain in a state of uncertainty, that He’s always there rooting for you in any situation, always faithful that you will come out of it wiser. Trust the process and don’t forget that feelings have nothing on faith. Perfectionism is religiosity and I believe it’s one of pride’s names, which is why some of us experience anxiety sooner or later if we fail to bring it up to God. Arguably the tendencies of it lead to sin. Next time you catch yourself feeling down because you messed up, try your best to recognize that as Satan trying to manipulate you. Your enemy here is not yourself but Satan. I’ve had many moments that I’ve felt I’m not doing enough or am not perfect enough, but the more I recognize those belittling thoughts the more I end up praising Him. Now I see them as opportunities to practice His presence. The more you practice His presence, the better you’ll shrug off that feeling of inadequacy. You don’t ruin His plan for you when you know in your heart you are sincerely doing your best to obey Him despite every time you fall short, therefore you’re not preventing His blessings. His blessings will reach you in ways you might not even be aware of sometimes. The key is transform your mind, then you will be able to know even in tough situations like this, each time you feel inadequate, the outcome is a blessings because when you are weak, then you will be strong. (2 Corinthians 12:9-11). I really hope and pray this has helped and I will be praying for you! God bless you always! <3
Romans 6:1-14 What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? By no means! We are those who have died to sin; how can we live in it any longer? Or don’t you know that all of us who were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life. For if we have been united with him in a death like his, we will certainly also be united with him in a resurrection like his. For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body ruled by sin might be done away with, that we should no longer be slaves to sin—because anyone who has died has been set free from sin. Now if we died with Christ, we believe that we will also live with him. For we know that since Christ was raised from the dead, he cannot die again; death no longer has mastery over him. The death he died, he died to sin once for all; but the life he lives, he lives to God. In the same way, count yourselves dead to sin but alive to God in Christ Jesus.Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body so that you obey its evil desires. Do not offer any part of yourself to sin as an instrument of wickedness, but rather offer yourselves to God as those who have been brought from death to life; and offer every part of yourself to him as an instrument of righteousness. For sin shall no longer be your master, because you are not under the law, but under grace.
By His Grace, Sheela (Via godfirstgodalways)