(ANON MESSAGE RECEIVED FROM GodfirstGodalways)
I’m a preschool teacher. But I’m deaf. Everyone at work doesn’t understand what I go through or went through my whole life to get to where I am today. For the longest time, I’ve wished that I never become that way and I’ve always thought about how different my life would be if I wasn’t the way I am. I know I am special in God’s eyes but sometimes I feel like I’m not.
Thank you for this. 🙂 Sometimes, I feel like none of my family members know what I go through on an emotional level. I’ve always been emotional since I can remember. I remember many times lashing out in anger because of impatience and the next minute I’m the sweetest little girl. One minute I’m crying over something that I’ve become so sensitive about and the next minute my tongue can be like a dagger overly criticizing a loved one. I’ve actually often thought I was bipolar. Yet no matter how many bad thoughts, ideas, and suggestions might bombard my head about the possibility that I may be bipolar, there’s one thing I’m most certain about, and that is my relationship with God. Your relationship with Him has to be stronger than any feeling you’re inclined to feel for whatever circumstance you are in. If you were never deaf, you would still be special…but would you actually trust/believe God that you were? See it doesn’t really matter what you feel because what’s more important is what you believe. I believe the more emotional a person is the more they need to learn to trust God, otherwise they’ll just naturally trust their feelings. But He says that’s not what a relationship with Him is about. It’s about walking in faith because that’s where you’ll find your confidence to know just how special you are.
Besides the fact that God says I am special to Him because I’ve accepted His Son as my Savior, I choose to believe I am special to Him because of how emotional I am, not that emotions are so wrong…. all humans are emotional but you have to learn to see beyond yourself, beyond your feelings. Our feelings are there as triggers for us to focus on God. I truly believe that. Someone who doesn’t have a day to day relationship with Him will more likely live on their own terms, always trusting their feelings, but the danger there is feelings come and go. You’ve got to put your trust and focus on God. He never comes and goes. That’s wisdom every Christian should know. We all can be less sensitive towards ourselves and instead be more sensitive towards God and others. Be grateful for the way you feelabout where you are now because through prayer God can absolutely turn that into something very beautiful. I believe that you being a preschool teacher gives you a perfect opportunity to shine this beauty from within you so that your kids will benefit from you. They will benefit because of how you love and care. It’s totally understandable that you might not be able to influence them with your faith, but God sees your special heart and that’s all that matters. Have faith in Him. And trust, you are special! God bless! <3 😉
By His Grace, Sheela (Via godfirstgodalways)