(ANON QUESTION RECEIVED FROM GodfirstGodalways)
How do you found god? I come from a really religious family and I still struggle after 17 years. Don’t know why..
I’m really late for replying, so I’m very sorry. :/ I found God through accepting that He is everywhere even in the midst of trials. It’s during each time I felt like giving up on life. The better I became at recognizing those times as growth opportunities, the better I got at acknowledging His presence. The first few and many times (I say few but many because it was a string of many but few compared to all growth opportunities), I recognized God was there watching me, but I did nothing about it. Now I am better at recognizing His presence and I actually do something about it….not every single time because I am not perfect but I definitely reciprocate more often nowadays compared to before. I hope I made sense. I feel like I am able to explain this about my growth because I’ve grown to understand myself more. I try not to spend so much time learning about myself, getting to know myself better, or just getting too deep into all about myself because there are definitely dangers in that obsession. Focusing so much on yourself actually leads to anxiety….at first it shows itself as the right thing to do, but then it’s followed by pride and pride reveals itself to others as self-righteousness, and then you end up sooner or later with anxiety. I’ve also gotten better at sensing whenever I am tempted to go that route and instead I try and use that time and energy to focus on Jesus. Whenever you focus on Jesus, prayer becomes as natural as breathing. That’s why the Bible encourages praising and worshipping Him through good times and bad. When you focus on Him, He automatically reciprocates and checks on you. You’ll know this through conviction/discernment. I mean the Holy Spirit is always watching you no matter what whether you care or not, but it’s your focus on Him that takes you back to your relationship, and it’s there He reveals things you must know about you.
Your relationship with Jesus gives you the direct relationship to God, and God knows you best more than anyone else including you. Be humble knowing that you don’t know everything there is to know about you. He knows the intricacies of your heart and how subjective you are to change. You don’t own you, you were bought at a price, that price was Grace and it should be given back to Him through continual surrender. You can’t put a price on Grace, it’s free to you but that price was great. You’re giving Grace back whenever you approach God because that Grace is Jesus in your heart…..that’s if you have accepted Christ as your Savior. That’s how you can even begin to see through God’s eyes, but again stay humble because the more you know, the more you actually don’t know….like David T. Freeman said “The more you know, the more you realize how much you don’t know — the less you know, the more you think you know.” That’s why every Christian is a hypocrite, you will never meet one who is perfect. We are that way for a reason and that reason is because God is perfect. There it is again….humility, surrender…focus on the Lord through whatever circumstance you are in and you will survive, you will be okay, He will deliver you, you’ll come out of it stronger. We can only strive to be perfect through progress and the Bible is the perfect tool for life.
Religion is summed up by strict practices set by rules, it strips away the purpose of a relationship with the Lord. You want to put importance on making habits that keep you one with Him rather than convincing yourself that you are on His good side by doing good deeds. Religion encourages us to look at our Heavenly Father as a god who punishes every wrong thing we say or do. It makes us look at life hopelessly and not want to live it or live it vicariously through our own understanding of what’s best. Focus on the relationship, not the religion. You will find God everywhere when you allow yourself to be found by Him where you are right now. Finding God was a journey and it still is, you don’t just find Him one day and expect to be happy for the rest of your life. Christianity is hard and easy at the same time. It seems easy at first especially when a person becomes saved and it becomes hard because of the trials. Overall, it becomes easier the more you humble yourself and it seems hard especially when you are not in tune with God. I hope I make sense…It becomes easier the more mature you become, trials are only difficult when you approach them with a low level of maturity, problems will be problems, it’s how you handle them. I try to find Him by meeting Him halfway and early mornings are the best time to do that, although everyday and every hour is doable too. I was baptized as Catholic when I was a baby, I was baptized as a Christian when I was 12 after a summer long program my mom had me signed up for…I felt I did it for my parents, particularly for my mom. My relationship with Him then was once in a while and half hearted, convictions from God we’re subtle in my teens, but I would say I sensed stronger convictions from Him when I got baptized a third time (22 yrs old), this time as a Christian who wanted to rededicate my life to God. My family was not there to witness and I felt I did it more for myself. I want to get baptized again in the near future, but this time with my family there and this time I want to do it all for Him.
You say you still struggle after 17 years. Please look at your struggle as a blessing. It is a blessing because God has placed in your heart a discomfort so you can do better. He placed a desire in there for you to want better. You want better? Then do better. Good deeds alone will not get you to Heaven, but focusing instead on the purpose of your obedience behind those good deeds will keep you one with Him. If you’re not sure you’ve accepted Christ as your Savior, you can begin to ask Him to live inside you by inviting Him into your heart. Surrender. Everyday. You get closer to Him the more you pray. You learn to pray the more you pray. I’ll keep you in my prayers tonight. God bless! 🙂
Ephesians 2:8-10 For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.
Titus 3:5 He saved us, not because of works done by us in righteousness, but according to His own mercy, by the washing of regeneration and renewal of the Holy Spirit,
Ecclesiastes 7:20 Surely there is not a righteous man on earth who does good and never sins.
2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.
Romans 11:6 But if it is by grace, it is no longer on the basis of works; otherwise grace would no longer be grace.
1 Corinthians 6:20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.
John 14:6 Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
By His Grace, Sheela (Via godfirstgodalways)