I remember being 12 years old and thinking “When I’m 16, I’ll have my first boyfriend and I’ll get my driver’s license, when I’m 25 I should be married, and when I’m 30 I should have my first child.” Okay, so none of my predictions came true. By the time I turned 25, I still couldn’t figure out what I wanted to be in life. There’s a one hit wonder by 4 Non Blondes and it goes….
Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
And I try, oh my god do I try
I try all the time, in this institution
And I pray, oh my god do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what’s going on?
That was my song. I sang it quite well actually. I was one of two vocalists in a cover band performing weekly at a bar not far from the Vegas Strip. I didn’t pick the song, the members chose it for me but they didn’t even have a clue I was only a few months away from turning 25. I remember that year clearly. I thought I had a very good standing relationship with God, but I look back and I was actually more on the self-righteous side blinded by my own self-confidence, yet I didn’t have a clear focus on how God wanted to use my skills and talents and I was still chasing after worldly gains.
I always believed having a goal meant that you’re counting on yourself to achieve it one day. YOU SET IT, YOU GET IT. And it confused me so much because the Bible says that God establishes a man’s steps, no matter how much he plans his own life (Prov. 16:9). So what did He want from me?!? Why did He give me so much passions and interests and I can’t even focus on one to set me for life?
He brought me back to square one. And not just once, but quite a few handful of times. Square one was a corner as I had always pictured it before. And whenever I came back to this place, I always lost hope and complained “Well, I’m going to have to work extra hard now just to gain back all the strength I just lost, because now I have to start all over again.”
It might have been the hundredth time of returning to this place that I finally realized it is not a corner but the center of where everything begins. It is now the place where the LORD always reminds me I am nothing without Him and have nothing without Him. And I have no complaints but praises and thanks. I have to make sure I’m still on the path. He brings me here to remind me it doesn’t matter how much I have been pushing myself just to walk a little faster than before because at times I felt I was so behind. What matters is that I’m walking in faith. What matters is that God is my ultimate Goal.
QUESTIONS TO ASK YOURSELF:
- Do I have a practical short-term goal concerning my spiritual growth?
- What improvements have I made (big or small) since taking the LORD more seriously?
- How has this blessed/benefitted others besides myself?
Heavenly Father, You made me to worship You, so my goal is to please You. If my strength comes from Your joy because You are pleased with me, then I ask that You make me more aware of opportunities to be a blessing to others. Show me LORD small miracles that lead me back to the bigger picture which is You. I trust in Your perfect will and plan because You do not fail. Help me to press on and keep walking with faith if it pleases You so. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.
“All you need is the plan, the road map, and the courage to press on to your destination.”
In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.
“God is my Goal.”
By His Grace, Sheela (via sheelaleigh.com)